My mother had an amazing bookcase. It was filled end to end and top to bottom with all sorts of books. Books on ancient Egypt, religion, the lives of the the saints. A set of 1948 encyclopedias, reference books, geometry, trig, and all sorts of fiction. There were space exploration books, mindfulness books and even some Chicken Soup for the Soul.
When I was 12 I found a very interesting book in my mother’s bookcase. It was pink. I’ve always disdained pink. I don’t even know what caused me to pull it out. I hadn’t even noticed it before. Besides being pink it had one of those line drawings of a 1950’s era housewife on the cover, big puffed out skirt and all. I think there may have also been an image of a teenaged girl on the cover as well. I don’t quite remember. I don’t even remember the title or author name. What I do remember is the magic that was inside it.
This indistinct pink book that from all appearances looked like a handbook for being a good housewife in the 50’s assisted me in my ability to manifest, intend and affirm more than I could have ever guessed. This book spoke of the Universal Divine Feminine, how to tap into it, and how to affirm it. It dealt with becoming and talked about how we are sparks of the Universal Light Force, in exact replica, miniaturized. There were tons and tons of affirmations all starting with the words “I AM”.
I AM. Powerful creatrix tool. Extremely powerful. Being present and aware in the I AM. Magical.
- I AM the Universal Life Force as expressed through the Divine Feminine.
- I AM powerful, vibrant, aware.
- I AM graceful, beautiful, compelling.
- I AM nurturing, kind, loving.
- I AM (insert desired adjective here.)
Not only did this crazy pink book have reams of I AM affirmations and various ideas for how to manifest through affirmations that which you desire to experience or be, but it also had clear instructions on how to actually make affirmations work. I learned how connect to the divine source within me. How to be present and mindful to it’s presence within my presence. I learned how to use the power of this sort of presence to FEEL what each and every word I was affirming felt like from the inside, out.
Granted, I had already read a Shirley McClaine book which taught me how to actually focus on my energy field in order to become a better “feeling” psychic. (auditory, knowing, feeling, visual, you get it.) So I had some practice with feeling what things felt like.
I made a list and hand wrote two sheets of affirmations then taped them to the wall at the head of my bed. At night I would sit there and read them while meditating upon them.
It took some days of practice for me to get from dealing with a fidgety mental state, reading the words too fast and hollow, feeling like I was faking it, to really slowing down and feeling each and every word-concept to it’s fullest.
Soon enough I was slowly savoring each and every word. Not moving on until I was satisfied that I had felt the perfect embodiment of each and every title and adjective.
I remember going over those affirmations for months and months.
Those affirmations and the process of learning how to embody and in turn vibrate the essence of them reshaped everything I knew about existence, and how we can shape it via focusing on our own personal divine presence.
Thank Goddess for mother’s and their magic bookcases.